Thursday, June 17, 2010
A Dream About Pie-in-the-Face
In the dream I or others ran away from getting "pie-ed." So today I looked up a definition and came up with this which perfectly described how I feel:
A practical joke (also known as a prank or gag) is a mischievous trick played on a person, especially one that causes the victim to experience embarrassment, indignity, or discomfort. Practical jokes differ from confidence tricks in that the victim finds out, or is let in on, the joke rather than being fooled into handing over money or other valuables. Practical jokes or pranks are typically lighthearted and made to make people feel foolish or victimized to a certain degree, although in some practical jokes there could be an inherent strain of cruelty present.
This actually perfectly describes my feeling about my dream. Why do we run from the pin-in-the-face? Because we are afraid to experience embarrassment, indignity, or discomfort.
My life is like that right now. I am in a tremendous amount of pain, not over a practical joke, or a prank--but, over the consequences of my own acts: lying, manipulation, gross neglect, and untreated alcoholism and depression. I am awaiting a cosmic pie-in-the-face.
I believe that I have learned that every action of mine, no matter how large or seemingly small-- both good and bad bears a karmic consequence; and, that in my heedlessness and carelessness and negativity I determined for my own self that I would take a pie-in-the-face. The utter absurdity is my fretting over this--look, I don't make light of punishment, my punishment may take me away from my family and deprive them of resources, even the scant resources that I provide; nonetheless I created these events in our lives and it is absurd to emotionally run around the room avoiding the consequences. Take the Pie in the Face, and move on. The people I admire in life are honest, unselfish, pure and loving--it is my hope that everyday I can move in the direction of these ideals.